Friday, February 16, 2007

Dangerous Minds

So I fell off the blog bandwagon for awhile. Jamar has coerced me into reentering the scene so here I am. Brief recap of life: I quit my job in July and went back to school for education (Secondary and Special to be exact). It was tough at first (with the loss of a nice paycheck) but it was a good decision and I do not regret it at all. I intern at an 'urban' school now during the day and go to class in the evenings. Its pretty tiring most days but again, I dont regret it.

I spent the summer in classes preparing for 'urban' youth. You can kinda guess how they prepare you. They say the kids might not be able to read. And that they are going to absolutely hate you. And that they might just swing on you. And curse words are definitely coming your way. And that they dont listen or follow directions. Oh yea, and that they dont do homework. And that the parents are cruel too.

Here it is...a whole 6 months later and I'm still in love with my job. Teenagers are bad. They dont always listen and they are real caught up with one another but they are the funniest people on the face of the earth. I have only had 2 'run-ins' with since the beginning. Neither involved anyone hitting me or cursing at me. And both times it was with this one little evil child who might just be Satan's spawn. Thats mean to say. I love him too. Hes just a difficult child. On the funny side of things, I've watched a 13 year old blk male explain 'teabagging' to an OLD white lady. Ive seen a little couple kiss in the hallway and then turn BRIGHT red when I blew up the spot. I've had a kid call my tattoo silly and ask me to buy a bottle and go out for drinks after school. I had a group of 3 create a dance for me. So everytime I come into the classroom I have music and a routine. I had a kid, just last week, tell me that my locs are getting long and asked me to "shake my dreds". They are great!

The kids, by and large, listen. Further, if they actually trust you they really TRY to do what you ask of them. If you care about them and truly want to teach them something they will attempt to learn. This is not to say they come to class on time everyday (they dont even though they make up wild excuses to humor you). Or that they always do their homework (we are working on that). But they TRY. I do not feel like I am wasting time writing lesson plans as long as I get just one.

What I know now that I didnt really think about before is kids just want someone to talk to. Kids dont want to be judged for real. They are even ok being chastised when they mess up. But they really want you to listen. They want to know if they tell you something that you respect them enough to keep it to yourself (unless its something legal then of course you have to go to the proper authorities :)). They want to know that if they need your help that you will stand by them and help them through. They want an adult friend who isnt a parent. And they want/need it BAD.

And I know everyone isnt meant to teach. I didnt realize that even I (the most patient and forgiving individual EVER) had it in me to last. But kids...especially Black kids...need people to talk to. Go volunteer some time people. They just need someone to listen to them. So...I'm on my soapbox. All you educated folks who have a few moments in your busy lives to spare...go volunteer at a rec or big brothers/big sisters of america. Or somewhere. Help someone out!

Moving forward...

I have this one loc that stands up in the air as though waving 'hello' everyday of my life. This one loc has ruined countless pictures. I dont know how to restrain it. I've tried headbands and scarves and bonnets and more. Oh the frustration. BUT I dont miss my relaxed hair. I'd rather have one surly loc than what I had before.

Well I'm done. Ill post again next week.

The Alphabet According to JENN!

1 of 2 posts today.

A - AVAILABLE: Yes?
B - BIRTHDAY: September 11, 1983 (Yes...I know...)
C - CRUSHING: Nope!
D - DRINK YOU LAST HAD: Sangria...which I hated.
E - EASIEST PERSON TO TALK TO: Myself
F - FAVORITE BANDS: Bilal is my favorite performer ever of all time. But I like lots...Meshell Ndegeocello, Eric Roberson, Jill Scott, Little Brother, Gnarls Barkley, Amy Winehouse. The list goes on and on forever.
G - GUMMY BEARS OR GUMMY WORMS: Worms...the sour ones.
H - HOMETOWN: Greenbelt, MD
I - INSTRUMENT(s): I played like 4 woodwinds between 4th and 12th grade.
J - JUGGLE: nope
K - KILLED SOMEONE: WITH KINDNESS sure!
L - LONGEST CAR RIDE: Atl when I was younger. Ill never do that again. I dont like road trips.
M - MILKSHAKE FLAVOR: Chocolate or Strawberry
N - NUMBER OF SIBLINGS: 2 little bits of Perfection
O - ONE WISH?: RICHES!
P - PERSON WHO LAST TEXTED YOU: Erica
Q- QUIET?: In public most of the time. But with friends never.
R - REASON TO SMILE: My students.
S- SONG YOU LAST HEARD: Smiley Faces by Gnarls
T - TIME YOU WOKE UP: 6:45 and for no good reason because I havent gone to work since Tuesday (because of the snow/ice)
U- UNDERWEAR YOU'RE WEARING?: boyshorts
V - VEGETABLE YOU HATE: cooked carrots. i like them raw. but cooked they are all soggy and gross.
W - WORST HABIT: Not answering the phone or responding to texts.
X - X-RAYS YOU'VE HAD: my thumb
Y - YOUR FRIEND THAT SHOWED YOU THIS: I stole it from Jarrod.
Z- ZODIAC SIGN: Virgo. Virgo is the sixth sign of the Zodiac and is represented by the virgin. Although you are an introvert you are talkative and lively when in company, making you the ideal companion. You are also very health conscious and hygiene is of the utmost importance to you. This may even be taken to the extreme and result in hypochondria. Because you are highly strung you need to learn how to relax to avoid stress or nervous strain. Virgo is associated with the digestive system and when you get nervous you will feel the tension in your stomach. With a Virgo Sun you care for all living things and like to be with other people as you are interested in their opinions. You are naturally friendly, thoughtful and very kind to others but do not like to get emotionally involved with their problems as you are uncomfortable with this depth of feeling. You are naturally analytical and like to organise yourself and others. Making lists will come naturally to you, as will being tidy, and you like to have a regular routine. You are always punctual and plan ahead to ensure you make no mistakes. Your liking for detail and perfection can result in you being critical of other people's behaviour as well as your own. This love of detail can result in you becoming overly fussy or narrow-minded as you fail to see the bigger picture. But you are a very hard worker and are content to work behind the scenes where you can serve others in your quiet efficient manner. You find praise or being in the limelight highly embarrassing.

Friday, November 10, 2006

And Im Back...With a Survey...

Three Names You Go By: Jennifer, MissMcLaughlin, and Miss M.C. (my kiddies)

Three Parts of Your Heritage: black is all i claim

Three Things That Scare You: spiders, wasps, car accidents

Three of Your Everyday Essentials: glasses, ipod, spiral notebook

Three Things You Are Wearing Right Now: pink polo, hampton sweatpants, eyeglasses

Three of Your Favorite Bands or Musical Artists: BILAL, Meshell Ndegeocello, The Roots

Three of Your Favorite Songs: Crush on You (Lil Kim), Superwoman (Stevie Wonder), Maps (Yea Yea Yeahs)

Three Things You Want in a Relationship: trust, honesty, fun

Three Physical Things about the Opposite Sex: tall, attentive, driven

Three of Your Favorite Hobbies: reading, sudoku, sleeping

Three Things You Want Really Badly Right Now: a winter wardrobe, a new cell phone, SHOES

Three People You Would Like to See Do This: wow...im just hopeful people see my that i actually posted. But I guess Mr. Keith, Keva, EHill

Three Non-Physical Things About the Opposite Sex: silly, helpful, witty

Three Favorite T.V. Shows: Grey's Anatomy, TopChef, Project Runway

Three Songs that you have listened to while completing this meme: None...

Thursday, July 20, 2006

If I Dont Tell Someone Ill Just Bust

Let me start by saying I got into grad school. I am officially a first year graduate student at The George Washington University. I am working on my M.Ed. in Secondary Education and Special Education. So yea for me! Im real happy and real excited and all that jazz.

Its 800 degrees everyday now. I have to walk around campus (and all over NW) in that heat and its NOT a good look. Such is the nature of being a student I guess...but its still not a good look. The only good thing is that my hair is now locked...so the heat and humidity do NOTHING. No accidental afros for MissJennifer...no no no...

On to my day...

I had the worst Wednesday evening ever. I had a conversation with someone and it made me upset. Not the kind of upset where you yell and curse and feel better. The kind of upset that NOTHING cures. The kind that you have to try to sleep through and forget. And I did try that. But when I woke up Thursday morning I still had that pain in my heart...I was shaken to the point that I couldnt really hold on to objects. I dropped everything I touched until about 745 (I get up around 545). I pulled it together though. And no one saw the mess that I was. So...rough morning to say the least...

So anyways...I was getting off the train at DuPont Circle to go to my elementary school. I stepped off the train dreading the fact that I have to go back into the heat. A black man stepped off the train (but a separate car) at the same time. We were headed towards each other. Im listening to my ipod (i know) and I thought I recognized him but Im like 'Jennifer the heat is getting to you'. But I guess he saw the look on my face and with a big welcoming smile said "HELLO!" I say "Are you a writer?" He says "why yes I am". I say "are you a poet" he responds "why yes, I am". I say "wow...are you E. Ethelbert Miller." He says "why YES! I am. And who are you?!" Now, yall know Im obsessed with blk lit and blk poetry. I saw Miller at the Furious Flower Poetry Conferenceand immediately fell in love (with his work that is). He is my 3rd favorite poet. He follows Sanchez (who I met at FF) and Giovanni (who I saw at FF). No. I didnt ask for an autograph or anything...thats not my style. I did, however, rap him up in conversation for the next 15-20. Talked til I got that good business card. (Upon telling him I graduated from HU in 05 he responded "Harvey actually lets people graduate." He didnt laugh). So...anyways...I dont know if he was actually interested in what I was saying or just really good at faking it. I dont even care for real. That was the BEST pick me up ever. It made me really happy and I needed it. I dont have many Favorite People and to run into one on my worst day ever was such a blessing. He watches over me...

I was going to continue on in my blog to talk about life...but I am so happy to replay the Miller story that I have to leave the computer and do something.

I hope everyone is having a day like mine :)

Monday, June 19, 2006

This Post Brought to You By the Color Purple and the Letter S

I got my letter from Talia who got her letter from Jarrod who got his letter from Jameil and so on and so forth...

Ten things that start with the letter S:

*Sex

Im a reader. Ive been a reader forever. I normally reach for a novel, but something came over me about 2 weeks ago in the grocery store. I bought a magazine. It was Cosmo. Some of the articles were great...but why so much about sex? Dont people have things to discuss other than sex or a sexual act or what counts as acceptable with a mate or what you can/cannot do on the first date? Geez...lets talk about world hunger or literacy in this country...

*Sloane

I have a 3 year old cousin named Sloane. She is the youngest grandchild (for today at least since her mother is pregnant with a baby boy :)) Sloane had a dance recital at the other HU's Cramton Auditorium. Again...shes 3. But we were there. She was wondeful. At 3 you cant really go wrong when you have on a dress...u just look like a doll. Afterwards, the fam is all at her house watching tv and carrying on like good black folks do (yes...there was chicken). My 17 year old cousin starts flipping channels and "Lean Wit It" comes on. Sloane begins snapping, leaning, and rocking with it. Throwing her head back and everything. Ridiculous. The babies are sponges...dont let them watch CRAP. Its funny now...it wont be funny when shes 9...

*Silver

I love silver jewelry. I prefer white gold but my wallet doesnt. Apparently gold looks better on my 'skin tone'. (Here is where someone normally calls me light and I start my 'im brown skinned' argument.) I cant even disagree though. Gold does look good on me...but then what DOESNT look good on me? (that was false confidence but it was convincing wasnt it?!)

*Sculpture Garden

I have wanted to visit the Hirshhorn Sculpture Gardenfor a long while (that being maybe 4 months). I dont like to do museum-like visits alone but apparently no one else wants to go. I might just have to brave the heat and make the trip after work this week. Im sure it will be worth it.

*St. Elsewhere

Gnarls Barkley is the truth. Definitely the best album of 2006. Maybe I'm bias because I already liked Cee-Lo. The beats are strange but on point. The songs are all short enough so that the songs dont get annoying. The album is in HEAVY rotation at my desk and on my ipod. If you dont have it you need to check up on it asap.

*School Teacher

Keva and I were at Bowie Town Center the other day. She needs something to wear for her bday and shes in school. I start looking around and Keva says "No long skirts and cardigans for you Jennifer. You arent going out with me looking like a school teacher!" The SHOCK! Me...conservative? Of course you wont catch me with any body parts hanging out EVER...but does that mean I dress like a school teacher? I just like to look like the lady I am. I dont think there is anything wrong with that.

*Songs

(Im just going to list my top 5 for this week...and I mean literally this week...)

1. Hold My Hand - Van Hunt
2. Superwoman - Stevie Wonder
3. Trouble - Amel Larrieux
4. Call Me When You Get This - Corinne Bailey Rae
5. Necromancing - Gnarls Barkley

*Stinky Scratches

There is one particular creepy IT guy at my job. He used to say real suspect things in my presence but then I got a new boss (a 30-something black man) and he stopped bothering me. Hes the one in the office who touches ALL of the treats that people buy. You know...smelling all the donuts before picking...yea that guy. I have to talk to him regularly because I break things and need them to be fixed. I walk back into the IT office to ask for a laptop. The IT guy leans back in his chair (as though I asked a difficult question, sticks his index finger between 2 of the buttons on his shirt, and digs in his navel. How do I know he was in his navel you ask...HE DOESNT WEAR A TEE/BEATER UNDER HIS DRESS SHIRT. You can see the outline of his navel because his gut is constantly on the verge of explosion out of his shirt. So hes digging...pulls something out...rolls it between his index finger and thumb and flicks it towards his monitor. He continued the conversation like it never happened. I know his fingers smelled bad. I know he wanted to smell them because he is just THAT creepy. YEESH!

*Science (and Mathematics)

I dont care that I have a "liberal arts" degree. I cannot do a math problem or answer a question about science to save my life. How am I to survive a standardized test? Its not fair...I dont need science or math in grad school...I can count my money. I can calculate percentages. I know how to pay off student loans. What more is necessary?

*Student Loans

Student loans make me want to cry. If one more person says "your education was an investment and it was worth it" i will swing. If I hit the lottery, I will pay off everyone's student loans. I dont want anyont to have to deal with this CRAP anymore.

...that was more difficult than expected. Until the next post...

Monday, March 06, 2006

I Guess Its My Turn (but at least I'm posting)

I'm It! Blame E. Hill!

Four jobs I've had:
1. Training Coordinator
2. Salesperson
3. Writing Lab Tutor
4. English/Reading Teacher

Four movies I can watch over and over:
1. Midnight in the Garden of Good and Evil
2. Eve's Bayou
3. Crooklyn
4. Love Jones

Four places I have lived:
1. Hampton, VA
2. Lanham, MD
3. Silver Spring, MD
4. (yea...thats really it but Ill reach and say) Greenbelt, MD

Four shows I love:
1. Law & Order: Criminal Intent
2. Law & Order: Special Victims Unit
3. Home Movies
4. The Boondocks

Four highly-touted TV shows ... I don't get the hype:
1. Survivor
2. American Idol
3. OC
4. Friends

Four books I'd recommend to anyone, anytime:
1. Jazz by Toni Morrison
2. For Colored Girls... by Ntozake Shange
3. The Salt Eaters by Toni Cade Bambara
4. Rattlebone by Maxine Clair

Four places I have vacationed:
1. Cancun
2. Florida
3. Bahamas
4. dare I admit to Myrtle Beach (with my grandmother and cousins)

Four of my favorite dishes:
1. Shrimp and pasta with marinara
2. cheese pizza
3. collard greens
4. brocolli rice au gratin

Four sites I visit daily:
1. Facebook
2. Gmail
3. Washington Post
4. It's A Black Thang

Four places I would rather be right now:
1. in my bed sleep
2. Arundel Mills
3. Annapolis Mall
4. Keva's house

And I'm tagging:
1. Keva
2. John
3. Omari
4. Tony

*Sidenote: Real post coming soon...

Tuesday, December 13, 2005

And I'm Back...

First off, let me say that I did do a blog last week. But my mother's computer went berserk and I lost the post. I was so annoyed that I just said f it and went without posting. But since I have gotten some dirty ims from people about my lack of posting I'll try to step my game up. (following in your footsteps hill)

*Work

The company I work for had a Christmas party this past weekend. I went...didnt really have an option. Anyways, they give awards at the party every year. I won Rookie of the Year. Didnt expect it because we all know I am not thrilled to have to go to work everyday. But whatever. I got it...and a check. Make that 2 checks because I got a Christmas bonus too. So this week I am happy at work. I'm sure I will go back to disgruntled next week.

*Nicknames

I have never really had a nickname in my life. My family (and the Marables) call me Jenn, but besides that I have always gone by Jennifer. The people at my job refuse to accept that I like Jennifer. They have each given me a nickname. Smalls, Grinch, Snow Bunny, Little Foot, and Rook Smallwood. People are crazy. Its not me. But I really dont like nicknames...seriously...I hate it.

*Love (or is that Lust)

There is this guy. I thought I really liked this guy. I really might like him...but I cant tell because I cant get past this thing he has. Now, he is not the only person walking the planet with this thing...but the thing is so great that it deserves applause everytime its encountered. I'm not sure if he knows I'm in love with this thing but I really am. I would possibly marry and reproduce for that thing. It really is a great thing. Not sexual...just a thing. A really wonderful thing. I told Brooks about the great thing. She knew too! I had no idea it was a widespread thing. But maybe I need to find someone with that thing a little closer to home. I'm bout to break out singing "1 Thing". Damn that thing is great. Sometimes I pick up the phone and call just because I know the thing exists. Its really great. For real...

*Its Cold

I dont have much to say about the ridiculous weather, but if it gets any colder or even maintains the 20 degree weather now, I will freeze and die. It sucks. I cant deal well with it. I need one of those ski jump suits.

*Tookie

Did you really think anyone was really going to let Tookie live? I dont know if that man was guilty or not, but I do know that he was black and found guilty of murdering 4. It is very unrealistic to believe that he would get to live. I, of course, am always against the death penalty. So, R.I.P. Tookie.

*Richard Pryor

It is sad that Pryor died. But that man had MS for like 20 years for real. MS is a horrible disease. I'm sure he was probably in pain. I'm sure it pained him even more to be unable to perform after he got sick. So, to the funniest man ever, R.I.P.

*Locs

My hair makes or breaks my days. Last week was a bad week. My hair was a mess. This week...back to fresh and feeling good about it. Its sad, but such is life. Next week I'll be mellow. When I get to week 3 I will be back to sad.

*Jaspers

Who told everyone that Jaspers was a club? Its not. And the food isnt good. Why do people have on the serious club outfits when they are in there? I dont understand it. What am I missing? Can someone please explain. I am not impressed with anything going on in Jaspers, and if possible, will avoid it. But please PG County, break it down for me. What is with Club Jaspers?!

*Email Addresses

SOMEONE felt they had to call me out on my long email addresses. I wish Mr. Keith was the first...but people complain about it all the time. Maybe that is why bammas dont email me. But I cant disagree, my email addresses are long. I'm sure people get all ready to send me a message and decide against it because the keystrokes for my name are just too much. If you are one with that issue, please let me know. I have 2 short email addresses too.

*Anthony Hamilton

I am NOT impressed with Mr. Hamilton's new album. The man can sing and is CLEARLY talented. But its just not all coming together like it did with his first album. There are a couple songs on there that I am in love with though, so not all is lost.

I am tired of typing and have, quite possibly, run out of words anyways. Who knows when I'll post again...

Sunday, November 27, 2005

Response

Keva, my oh so perceptive best friend, knows me better than most. She always seems to get things about me that go right over others heads. I have been blessed to have a few people like that in my life (Mommy, Erica, and Hill), but Keva is different. It wasnt always that way but as we have grown, so has our friendship...

Anyways, Keva has a blog too. I read it (of course) and comment sometimes. She posted the other day: Brooklyn Stand Up. Now, I just KNEW what she was talking about. Understood all she was saying and was nodding my head as my eyes went over her words describing her special friend, a native of Brooklyn. So the other day when we were out the blog came up in conversation. But I was wrong.

Apparently that post was about me. I went back and read it again. And it is. If you know me you'll get it. So read it. And enjoy...

Once Again

So...its hard to find time to actually sit down and try to blog about any one topic. I'll do it this week. But for today, another quick rundown.

1. It has become clear that deciding to loc my hair is going to be harder than I expected.
2. T-Pain's "I'm Sprung" is like my favorite song right now. Mind you, I do understand that he isnt the most talented performer out, but his song does make me tap my foot. And no, I'm not sprung. I just like the song.
3. I told Hill I would call her and STILL havent done it. I feel real bad cause it really slipped my mind. But when I listened to her voicemail saying "Jennifer your best is just not good enough" I felt like a bad friend. SORRY HILL I LOVE YOU STILL!
4. I broke my ipod earphones on friday while I was at work. I was PISSED. But its Sunday and I have already replaced them so whatever.
5. I made a phone call to someone other than my mother or keva or erica (extremely rare) and though they didnt answer, they called back and left a message acknowledging that they understood how difficult it was for me to make that call. I appreciated that.
6. I stood someone up Saturday because I felt sick and fell asleep. I feel bad cause this is the second time I did that to this particular person.
7. Keva told me that I am not receptive to being approached/hit on by men. Shes right. I always think people are just telling me too much information or trying to play me. Imma work on it though.
8. I hate when people take pictures of me. Its disturbing how uncomfortable I am knowing that there are pictures of me floating around that arent in my posession.
9. My mother told me I need to do a Christmas list for the family. But nothing I want is under 200 and I think its selfish to ask for gifts like that from anyone but my parents. But I cant just make stuff up cause then I wont use it and bammas will be mad. What a dilemma.
10. I am in love with Michael Kors. My mother even was drooling over one of his bags yesterday. Imma die if I dont get one real soon. I dont care how much they cost dammit. People buy Coach, why cant I buy Kors?!
11. I put my prom pic on Facebook. Everytime I look at it I laugh. I just KNEW i was grown. And I so far from it...

Okay. Done. Imma blog again by Tuesday with a real blog...